I was talking to these people about 'potentials' - you know, the ones we feel could be, would be, and most importantly SHOULD be the significant other half's in our lives. Moving on campus, moving off campus, moving waaaay of campus. They all seemed like reasonable solutions for the missing piece in our dateless lives.
I got to wondering about relationships. Location aside, do our chances of dating have unlimited potential, or does dating come with an expiration date?
I've been talking with someone (believe me it sounds better then what it actually is) and from what I can tell I like what I hear. I can't remember the last time where someone that I actually liked shared so many of the same aspects of my life; and what's even better about it is that it's real. None of this molding nonsense, none of this pretending. This kid felt to be all real.
That changed the moment we met.
True, it was probably the best date I've ever had, the events that took place after took me back to all the bad moments I've ever had in dealing with relationships. The games, the lies, the run-arounds. I couldn't help but think that I was being set up, used, or tricked into feeling something that's just not there for the other person, but evident in me.
What I feel the most embarrased about is the fact that I fell too hard, too fast - something my best friend warned me and even made me swear not to do, and I did it anyway. Things haven't progressed, even though I'm infatuated with the idea of potentially starting something up with this person, but I don't really think the time is right, or that their heart is in it.
In restaurants, the cut off the molded piece of cheese and bread because they're the 'bad parts,' but continue to use it because it's still considered good. What is it that I need to 'cut out' so that I can still be considered just as good?
If love and dating really does come with a 'use by,' 'sell by' date, it is quite possible that mine has the life expectancy of a dairy product. I'm giving it a week.
KLR
