Call me old-fashioned, but I believe that the best relationships are ones that are built upon personal meetings and quality time spent with one another. Chit-chatting back and forth via Internet based outlets are a quick fix for a long-lasting longingness for something more.
Which brings me to a frightening revelation. The relationships that I have had or could have had all stemmed from a conversation that started with a computer screen.
The one and only relationship that I've had began with a friendly message and led to something more. We met up faster than what I would have ever imagined and started dating a month after. I feel as if it was a success story for the time that it lasted and because of the way it began, but it still spawned from a completely impersonal standpoint. Perhaps if it had gone a different way, the fights, the cheating, and the overall memory of the entire thing would have been riddled with more happiness than doubt and wonder.
Which leads me to the scary part: I have been conversing with someone now for a few days, but only through text messages (sad and pathetic, but my thumbs are getting a great workout). The conversation is amazing - I feel as if I know this individual on a personal level rather than on a digital field, but what scares me is the idea that I will have to settle with the 'lols' and the sideway smiley faces instead of really hearing them laugh and smile.
Again, let me preface by saying I'm probably making a bigger deal out of this than what it needs to be (I have been known to blow things out proportion) but the same theme comes down to this story as in all of my other ones - the search for happiness. I whole heartedly believe that every single human being deserves to experience the full feelings of euphoric love if only for a little while.
Love may be fleeting, but the memories and the feelings that come from those relationships last for years to come. So remember the next time you fall head over heels to watch where you fall, because your going to leave a lasting mark.
KLR
